Unwanted Oblivion

I hate myself.  I hate my face. I hate my eye colour. I hate my yellow, dull spud skin. I hate my mind. I hate the way how my life is run. I hate my Asperger’s. I hate my hair. I hate my stocky height. I hate being fat. I hate my diction and accent. I hate my two origins (especially to my mow). I hate my surroundings. I hate late bloomers who believe they are that great but they are not. I hate my southeastern upbringing. I hate my limited space that my maternal member cramps me in always. I hate always left alone whenever there is a social.  I hate being quirky all the time because of my fuc’n Aspies; that is why I can’t score chicks. I hate my generation of degeneration that I am witnessing right now, wished I am in my age today in the 70’s, this generation shall be erased and unremembered.  I hate my parents always favouring the late bloomer than the historic statesman who is a proven ace.  I hate when I did not have a sport to brag-- I should have been enrolled to swimming and soccer when I was 4-5. I hate my morbid self as a result of being spoiled. I hate my polluted earth. I hate when I am destined to something I do not want, worse than a fixed marriage. I hate being partner-less in a disco.  I hate when an estranged sibling claims credit on anything that you have and steals your own attributes.  I hate whenever I want something to tell, i could not easily express it due to fear of rejection.I hate being misinterpreted as a miscreant or event worse, a brigand. I hate myself being without a proper peer, a guide, or a motivator to keep me pumpin. I hate being pressured by a domineering mother who does not know the word "VOCATION", which changes roads all the time.  I hate my own anhedonia, which i shall carry beyond years upcoming.  I hate my euphoria, which leads to my anti-social self, and it kills me bad!!!! I hate being mocked all these years-- How i wished i can be Hitler to annihilate all my tormentors. I hate everything in short but most of all, I hate being born at this wrong time, wrong set, wrong hour,and anything wrong!!!!!